I am...

Honestly i dont know what I am surprised,irritated, annoyed...etc. This weekend was pretty interesting. You guys are probably thinking this is going to be some juicy stuff. Nope nothing of the sort just something slight. Well, Sunday I saw guy #1 everything was okay. He kept "messing"(touchy, feely feely) with me which is pretty normal. Until, his main girl came around. Shes the main by default -__- yea, I know. That's just ugly. I figured he would of calmed down and not pay me any attention...well that wasn't the case he continued. I really didn't mind until I got to thinking what if she sees him? What if she pops off?...but if he doesn't care why should I?
Oh wow how could I forget to tell you guys...my ex boyfriend was there o.O smh. As my friends told me I was excited to see him but honestly i didn't think so. I'm over him and the whole relationship, it wasnt awkward seeing him. But they don't think I'm over him *shrugs* Enough talk about him. Back to guy #1. So we left that location and went to the next. As we were there I got a promising text from him...but was it really that promising if I turned it down? He wanted me to spend the night with him and as much as I wanted to I told him no :-/ do I regret it now? Maybe...and because of the answer I gave him everything changed he stopped "messing" with me and I didn't even think anything of it. So we went to the next location and he barely even spoke to me, I defiantly felt some type of way about that-__- so some of us went outside of the lounge which included him. As I watched him like the creep I am I saw him with another girl and being the womanizer he is i didnt think anything of it..I continued to watch as he walked off with her only God knows what went on while they were together. So many thoughts were going through my head while they were together. Wtf is she? Why are they together? Wholetime that could of been me.. I felt myself getting upset. Then I thought why get mad? He isn't even my man. He came back and as I was leaving he gave me a hug and we departed...