Take a walk in my shoes...

I'm sure you wouldn't want to do it again...

Everyone is familiar with the popular saying "Forgive and forget". I personally don't believe its true. I'd rather go with "Forgive and learn" No one will ever forget when someone did them wrong, they may try to but it never works. Its easier to forgive them and learn from what they did.

With that being said,If I've forgiven everybody that hurt me why do I still find it hard to trust people or open up? I've been hurt so many times that I cant even count on one hand. From family members, to close friends, boyfriends..etc. I feel like I let their actions mold me into the person I am right now. As crazy as that sounds its true. I've become a very emotional,angry,unhappy, bitter person. I don't want to continue living my life like this. I thought I let all of these things go but I haven't. I locked them up in a box and refuse to open it back up, but what will happen if I decide to? I'm fed up with my own self, I want to change, but (smh, there's always a "but") I like parts of the person I've become. I grew a back bone. I stopped allowing people to walk all over me, and I learned how to speak up for myself. In order for me to better myself I have to dig deeper and find the root of my problems. If I ever get married and have children I don't want this weight on my heart that wont allow me to fully trust and love my them. Just the thought of that is scary. So, for my future I have to change.



Now tell me, how was your walk?!